Sometimes I wonder what can be considered a success and what is simply one's duty.
Is being happy/positive/productive a success or just everyone's duty?
Is finishing your dissertation a success?
What is success really?
Sometimes I think the biggest success is getting to the end of a Monday and feeling that you have done something useful for your body, mind, soul and wallet (let's not forget about it!). Or feeling you have made someone smile more than they would have otherwise. Or both.
Maybe the truth is that we should start seeing everything we do as an accomplishment.
- my (previously non-existent) level of tidiness is getting worse (i.e. better) every day
- I am always on time
- I always do what I promise to do
- I am very careful not to make quick decisions when it comes to practical things. For the first time in my life I had to convince my parents that I cannot find a suitable flat in a foreign town in 2 months. They were ready to let me go or even push me off a cliff :)
- I am moved by anything: an olympic gold (well, that's SOMETHING!), Terry's chocolate oranges coming through the post (I wouldn't call that nothing either), babies, puppies, friends who are being nice to me...
- I don't feel the need to use social media as much (and when I do is never to boast, at least not intentionally)
- I prefer quiet and relaxed dinners with 2 or 3 people to loud parties
- I do not worry about my reputation as much as I do about my conscience
- I keep telling my friends that I love them all the time (no putting things off!)
- I cannot go to a concert without:
a) singing out loud for free hours
b) losing my voice completely (but I am afraid that's nothing to do with age but rather with living for the moment :)
c) having a massive headache
č) worrying about the hours of sleep I am going to get (I hate smartphones for that)
Positive energy and positive thoughts can only lead to positive outcomes. After all we are here to learn and fight to become better people. This is why I am trying to give the people around me all the love that I have. Why? Just because I can. I think it is wrong to live every day as if it were your last. We should aim to be energetic, positive and proactive (which we obviously can't be if we think about death all the time). But maybe we should just stop a little before getting angry, responding badly, judging. Because people around us don't deserve to be hurt. No one does.
It sounds like I am preaching and I am not. I am just a lass who's got friends who are always there for me, no matter what. Yes, they are sometimes too loud (my neighbours are going to kill me!!!) but they help me cook and they then do the dishes and tidy up (yes, I'm currently selecting friends based on how much they like eating and on wether they do the dishes at the end of a meal or not. My selection process is constantly changing :)
I am just a girl who's got amazing parents and I really don't know how and when I am going to give them back all the support and the love they give me. Without them my plans and ambitions would never become reality. They are always there for me.
I am just a girl who likes what she's doing. Someone who loves life even when because it is challenging. I have always overcome my challenges and will continue to do so, knowing that nothing is impossible - up to a point.
Not everything is predictable and when bad things happen all of a sudden, we are often helpless. These are the times when people need love and affection, but they also need peace and quiet. Time to reminesce, think, cry, react. Hugs help. Kind words, listening, trying to understand. Patience helps. And simply being there. We won't change things, we won't solve the problem. All we can do is be there. Because we can. *
*Said she turning up the volume of her laptop and started humming this song...Until her eyes filled up with tears.
