U-turns or aiming for the ultimate goal?

I have been absent for quite a while - again! Please forgive me. I have been way too busy enjoying longer days and the smell of spring in the air. I really think it's amazing to wake up when it's light already and to be able to go for a run (ehmm ...roll) in the sun after work. It just fills me up with energy and positivity. It's also great to be able to sit outside at night without being cold...A drink may help, but that's a minor detail. :) 

Lately I have been thinking a lot about my future, my wishes, expectations, ambitions and goals. At the moment my life is going into a completely different direction than the one I had in mind. At first, I found it scary, thinking that if I don't follow my dreams now it will soon be too late to do it. That there is no way back. That's what I am like: I am always on the move and although I appreciate what I have, I am never 100% satisfied. I think this is actually what keeps me going, what keeps me wanting to improve every day. I am restless and future-oriented, which is often a good thing but it can also make you go crazy. Seeing as I am crazy enough, I decided it was time to stop it. As usual, M. managed to put my mind at peace by telling me that: "If what you do makes you happy, you'll  end up achieving your ultimate goal in life, eventually." Now, I thought I knew what my goal was...I am not sure anymore. But it's ok for the time being. Sometimes you need to let go, you need to stop being a control freak and take things as they come. If it is true that we are the makers of our own destiny, I also believe that sometimes we have to go with the flow. After all, I am lucky to be always busy, never bored (something which, unfortunately, is not very common in this general state of apathy which permeates the whole of the Italian society), and surrounded by an ever increasing number of enthusiastic people.

I have always hated goodbyes. Those of you who know me well know how much I suffer every time I have to leave a place or the people I like - which, in my case, is equal to a life of suffering seeing that, as M. would rightly say, I like almost all the places I end up in and 90% of the people I meet.
As much as I like being a drama queen, I think it's not time for me to move on. Not yet :)